Patience - A Season of Waiting
Below is my article in the newest Journal on Patience. I talk about my journey through wanting a baby and having to wait. This article was written last year and I wanted to give a quick update. God is always good NO MATTER WHAT! I had to go through a season of waiting on something I desired so much. God has now blessed me and my husband with our desire and the timing couldn't have been more perfect. I am 5 months pregnant with our little girl, Olivia Rae.
Friend, He hears you. And He is there for you. Call on Him. Pray big. And trust. His plans are far greater than ours will ever be.
James 1:2-4 (ESV) “Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.”
Patience comes so easy when everything seems to go our way. The true test comes when things in our life begin to be shaken. What was once the norm for us has now been flipped. When we begin to be tested our demonstration of patience reveals our faith in God and everything He is.
We all go through seasons in our life. Some amazing. Some hard. Some steady. And we know we are going to be weaving in and out of these seasons for the rest of our lives. But that doesn’t make it any easier when the hard ones creep in, does it? I’ll answer a big, fat NO on that one. I can feel the heads nodding in agreement. No worries, friend, I am right there with you. I chose patience because, honestly, it is the thing God is teaching me most in this season of my life.
Can I be real and raw with you for a second? I stink at being patient. I want what I want, when I want it, how I want it. That makes me sound like a brat. I promise I’m not. I just struggle with it. I’m a dreamer and a planner, so I know what I want and I chase it until I accomplish it. So, what happens when I’m faced with something that I have no control over? Good question.
About 4 months ago I was diagnosed with a slight case of polycystic ovaries, which helped explain why I wasn’t getting pregnant. My husband and I went through 6 months of constant confusion because my body decided to play a mean joke and pretend it was pregnant when it really wasn’t. There was one month I had about 15 bajillion pregnancy symptoms (I may be exaggerating a little) and at that point I was done. I needed answers. Fast forward to my diagnosis and I left the doctor’s office that day feeling so much relief because we finally had answers. Medicine. A quick fix. Well, not so much. Our journey is just beginning.
We know God is teaching us something through this hard season. He knows our desire to be parents and we know He wants to give us the desires of our hearts. But does that make it easy? Absolutely not. I’d be lying to you if I told you it doesn’t hurt. There are days I snuggle into my husband’s chest with tears streaming down my face because I just don’t understand. But we are in a season of waiting and, though we don’t quite understand why yet, we hold true to the fact that God’s plans are far greater than ours and we are confident He is setting up something so beautiful for us that it’s going to knock our socks off! Patience is hard, but I know there’s something so amazing on the other side of it.
Friend, if you’re in a season of waiting, let’s wait together!